Some people make an indelible difference in our lives. A woman named Sally was one of those people in mine. I’m sure many called her their best friend and she was surely mine. I called her Grace, she called me Gracie, to remind ourselves, she said, how much we needed it! This story was originally posted in 2015. I was both grieving her loss and celebrating her life, as I pondered what she might have to say about my turning sixty that year.

(In memory of Sally Bjorkman March 2, 1942 – May 18, 2015)
From the distance, the limbs layered with maple leaves look like the tree’s heavy overcoat. Up close, just a breath of air, a bird’s wings, and each leaf flutters its independence. How stately and majestic the tree stands in its new summer attire. It wears its age well as unseen life strengthens it—leaf to limb, trunk to root to depths of the earth and shooting up skyward. It’s a sign that summer is coming and with it reminders of youth, when my own roots had not yet grown deep.
I’ve stumbled around the past weeks, the heavy curtain having fallen around me, once again, with the sudden loss of my dear friend. I had her in my life just ten years, one important decade, and felt as though she would always be there. As I write, I realize maybe she is. Words bring her into these moments with me. But I can’t shake the sadness. I’m wearing that old heavy overcoat I was certain that I’d tossed. A tree can shake its leaves, can’t I my grief? As an intruder appears without warning, grief sneaks into the space inside me that my soul sister, Sally, has left vacant.
Old Dog Sam stays near my feet, sensing my sorrow. Unaware, feisty cat Rose stands outside at the window on her hind legs, begging to come inside. I open the door and she purrs all the way across the house to the kitchen where I feed her and pet her as she eats. I remember Sally answering her cellphone at midnight once, as I roamed the neighborhood with Sam, looking for a missing Rose. “She’s a huntress,” Sally assured me, “she’ll be back.” She was right. I think of Sally’s cat alone now, without her, like me.
We come in, we go out. What do our days add up to and what do I do without my friend, the woman who stepped in when first my brother, then my mother stepped out? Good people gone, one after another and I am still here. Why? Who is worthy to live? Certainly the kind, life-giving nurturers like them. Those who always ask, “How are you doing?” and really mean it, then stop to really listen when you answer. The givers who pray into the deep crevices of one’s wandering soul. Why are they gone when the world needs them so, while the takers live on. Life on earth is about our training and transformation—it’s about our souls.
Startled from my thoughts by the sound of a boom against the window, I realize a sparrow has hit it and fallen…as have I, time and again.
If I surprised Sally when I confided in her about things I’d kept hidden, she didn’t show it. She seemed to understand. This was her gift to me. She listened and guided and would inevitably ask about my husband and son and father, reminding me how deeply she loved and cared, as she carefully removing the weeds of fear, self-focus and shame I was clinging to.
Years ago, I rented a house in a forest off a university campus, nestled safely away from the street. There was a long path leading to my front door with detector lights protecting me from prowlers. The lights were important because there were prowlers—one at least, maybe two. The owner of the house kept a good eye on me, and if the lights went on, he was at his window just sixty or so yards away. I would see his stern brow, his stare into the dark and know I was safe.
He could keep the prowlers away from my house, but not out of my heart. There, the weeds grew as thick as the garden that was just beyond my kitchen window. It wasn’t my idea to plant the garden. As a single mother with two jobs, I knew I wouldn’t have the time, and I had little interest in tending to it as cornstalks grew spindly, simply because I wasn’t paying attention. The person who had insisted I plant it scolded me when he saw the overgrowth and would take bags of tomatoes and zucchini home with him. I made a few pasta salads, but I didn’t tend my garden.
It seems ironic now as I plant the little plot of ground beside our house, to grow squash and tomatoes, peppers and collard greens. There is no corn, but this year maybe an eggplant. I watch the progress each day, watering and pruning. I get so attached to the vegetables it’s hard to eat them. I take photos and add them to the family album. Cooking is a ceremony and when we eat, I say a blessing over the soon-to-be, dearly departed vegetables.
As the tree, the garden grows—its roots, strength and transformative beauty new each day, pulsing with unseen life. I remember then the true Gardner pulsing life through me.
When I turned fifty, just nine days shy of ten years ago, I prayed that in the decade ahead, I would become a powerful woman of faith. I joined a new church where I met Sally, danced for Jesus—literally, to the song with that title. As the song instructed, I went to Him from my seat in the congregation to the Cross at the altar, sang for, fell on, cried, danced and flew to Jesus. And I was soon baptized in Lake Michigan.
Though it may have felt like it was Sally weeding and pruning me with her unassuming presence and infectious laugh, I know now God was with her, always beside her, above and below her. He was in her, tending to me. God brings people into our lives and takes them out. They are temporary gifts to us on earth, but Christ is ours to keep, and the same always—giving us the grace to be transformed, to deepen our roots and grow up, closer to Him and nearer to His heart.

Oh, Sally, this morning, once again, like you said you’d always be with me, I can just hear your giggle. And a still small voice saying, “Gracie, grow more dependent on Jesus, and like the tree, you will always wear your age well.”
Another beautiful post.
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In my frantic rush through these years, I don’t always take the time to read your posts. But whenever I do, I am blessed. Sally sounds like a saint.
What a great memorial to your friend Grace or Sally!
Thank you, Mark.
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Larry, any time we connect, I feel blessed. Looks like the book tour is going strong! I just love your authentic approach to touching lives.
Thank you, I hope she is smiling. ❤️
😍Yes, she surely is smiling.❤️
Your writing is wonderful…a real blessing. Even in challenging circumstances you find a gem to display to the world. Keep it up!
Such an exciting aspect of heaven will be meeting all of our brothers and sisters in Christ Jesus throughout salvation history and hearing their story. What God did for them.
I know, right? The stories will be so amazing. Thanks for the kind words and encouragement. I’m so grateful we’ve connected. You keep it up too!
One can sense love flowing through you as deep calls to deep. A visit with you never holds disappointment, for you faithfully give voice to the leading of the Spirit. Thank you for allowing us to eavesdrop on your visit with Sally.
Jon, how can I say this…? I prayed specifically yesterday that I would set aside any agenda and let the Spirit drive. Sally came to mind and then the post. (That was not the post I’d planned.) Maybe you can imagine how special your comment is. God’s so cool, and so are you! Thank you, my friend.
My heart aches for you Deb. I know what it’s like all too much. God does put our roots into the hard rocks of life to grow and split those rocks. Still there but smaller and smaller. Like natures ways they eventually nourish us. Gods ways…
Oh, Gary, this caught me off guard. People don’t often acknowledge the “ache”, you know? In my house, funerals were called celebrations. I can agree with that and you understand the reasons why, but what do you do and where do you go with the pain and grief? It takes a Gary to acknowledge it. Thank you. It’s why I started writing.
Deb